Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Why Try

Hei bloggies.
I’ve been off for too long. 

So MFAF is over, and I got so many new experiences and learnt more about myself, my friends, and how a team works.
So, now it’s been like first time in Padang again. I can be home at around 2 if I got no Skills Lab, and I actually can go jogging in the afternoon. And right now, I’m planning on enrolling in a Zumba or Salsa class next block. Hahhaha XD
Let’s see how my body works with rhtym. ;)
And ughh, good news I’ll be home from 13 to 17 May! #yayness
I’m planning on so many things, but first I’d love to get massaged for my body is as hard as the foundation rocks XD

And I’m studying Live Cycle this block.
It’s fascinating.

So yeah,I hope I get to blog more often and post more pictures.

Closing of MFAF 2015

Someone's B day! ;)

First SCOPH Project --> Velocity "Diptherie"

My CIMSA SCOPH Day's Out!! #excited

Too cute to not have a pair of right? ;)

This baby is calling me XD 

Recently liked-couple :)

P.S. : Thank you for everything Lord Jesus.

Monday, March 9, 2015


Everybody loves a clown, a comedian, one who makes fool of himself and makes others laugh.

But do peple really know that a clown, a comedian, they are the deeply hurt ones?
Hello bloggies.

It’s been too long since last time I post.
And it seems like everytime I post something it’s just around my college now.
hahahaha…so pathetic, I know.
But what else to say, I’ve pledged my life in studying human, the never ending mystery human.

These past three weeks I’m consumed by DANUS MFAF. 
Being part of DANUS, you gotta sell everything that brings money for your event. 
So you gotta have the “selling-mouth”.

And it also has been since these last 3 weeks, I gotta go home (or precisely go back to my always-missed room, here in Padang) feeling empty.
Tired. But I know I got things to do.
Wanting to call my family, but somehow I feel like I just need them here now, not by the phone.

So yeah.
Let me be this dramatic now.

Being apart from your home sucks.
Being in a place so different from yours sucks.
Not being around your loved family and friends sucks.
But, since it’s my life now, all I have now is just to lay all these in to His hands.

Dear you,
I feel so tired and empty.
At the same time I know you’re feeling exhausted.
I hate that I’m like water on a leaf.
I hate that I miss my friends and my family so much.
I hate that I need someone to hug so badly without feeling scared of what people may think.
I hate that  sometimes I think a break could make things better.
I hate that I can’t make myself see all the past things and just trust you.
Of all these things, I hate that it’s all true.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Tortured Enough

Dear diary,
Happy New Year!

Sorry it’s kinda late, but it’s just I have only passed my block 1.3 exam and last time I try posting, my connection was being a total pain in my heart.. XD

Let’s start with how we spent our new Year’s eve. We planned to just stay out until it turns to 2015, planned to dance the night away. But it turnt out we only could have New Year’s Eve dinner together and enjoyed some enjoyable-and-oddly-entertaining live-music.

At the last day of Block 1.3 exam

Me : “ouh ma gawdd Nad!! Ni akhir ujian blok 1.3!!Brarti satu semester dah lewat. 3 years to go, and we’re officially S.Ked!”
Nadrah : “hahahha..5 years later, and I’m officially married!”
Me : “hhahahah..amin!gue doain yang ngakatin cepet datang Nad.”

#Later that day

Me : “Ayoklah Jo..kamu ga bakal biarin aku ngelakuin hal bodoh sendirian kan?”
Him : “Gak akhh. Itu tu gak ada kerennya sama sekali..”
Me : “Ayoklah.Ni tu hari terkahir semester ini. Lakukan sesuatu yang akan kita ingat.”
Him : #pasrah face

And umm..I know that this is kinda super late but I just watched the Da Vincci Code last Friday! I kinda think that moving here has changed my movie-watching schedules. -__-

One more thing, being “emotionally” attached with Jo brings this kinda bad-but-also-good habbit to both of us. WE ALWAYS WALK EVERYWHERE WE GO. I honestly don’t have problem with walking, cause I enjoy walking and moreever it’s with him. But, until last time when we planned on going out somewhere, and didn’t work at all, then my Glados-side shows up.

Me : “ Capek tau Jo. Kita jauh-jauh ke sana dan ujungnya ga jadi. Capek!”
Him : “ Iya maaf. Tapi kalau dipikir-pikir itu kan bisa jadi pengalaman buat kita. Jadi tau gimana kondisi di sana.”
Me : “ Tetap aja aku capek. “

But sometimes it’s just another stupidity combined with not-so-cheesy-but-cute-at-the-same-time convos.


Him : My lady, selamat istirahat. Jangan lupa boker sama kentut dulu ya. Please be a lady when you do all of those. Thanks for torturing me all day. I love you until the very end of the galaxy. :*

Me : How can I be a lady when I’m farting and pooping? I wasn’t torturing you, I was just adapting ourselves.

Him : Yes you can. You can do beauty farting and beauty pooping, just like syahrini does.

Me : Hahaha.. aku bakal coba. Tapi ga kayak syahrini. Tapi kayak Princess Glados.

Sometimes, all we need is just self-origined-support! XD

Last time I went back and we celebrated christmas.

Pardon my fishy-piggy-face.

When we're in Bukit Tinggi for Sitoplasma.

This goes back to months ago.

SITOPLASMA Padang, with my chicken-little group.

Yah I know.. We look more like sisters than mom-and-daughter.

I blame this cake for making my christmas entirely family-tradion-oriented. XD

If you pay enough attention at Buk Gusti's (our last tutor) expression. 

One of my the things that I-so-dont-want-to-happen-to-me is losing my true self in order to fit someone’s wants. From what I experieced, it was a real torture. Slowly killing your self, and even worse putting other’s on. 

At the end, people who truely matter will grow with you, physically and emotionally. Don’t be bothered by those who can’t see how precious you are, people who don’t treat you right, people who only stay for some time and get lost just like the wind blows the mist.

Friday, December 12, 2014


December is always on my excitedly-anticipated-month list. XD

So, where to start?
It's been 4 months of the new chapter in Padang.
And yet, I've only posted one about it.

Right now, I'm at the end of week 4 of Block 1.3. That means I have 2 more weeks of 'studying', then I'm gonna have the exams.

Ada banyak hal baru selama di Padang.
Mulai dari jumpa kadaver, jumpa dan diajarin sama jinnya kadaver, sampek jumpa orang yang awalnya dianggap abang dan ujungnya malah tambah embel-embel 'sayang".hahahha..

Skarang, aku baru ngerti kenapa selama di Medan uang bulanan itu jadi hal yang "sesuatu" banget buat kawan-kawan di FKG dulu (red. Tere,Uci,Mumus).
Now, I'm facing the same damn problem!hahaha
Duit dipake cuman buat beli makan,dan keperluan kamar serta badan lainnya, tapi perasaan selalu aja membengkak! :p

And uhhh, di FK Unand ada SITOPLASMA, Simulasi Try Out Pelajar SMA, dan yang angkatan paling bontot yang jadi panitianya.
Dan aku jadi panitia di Sumatera Utara, ngebantu di Padang, manyomak di Bukit Tinggi.

Sampai skarang yang udah selesai baru yang di Bukit. Bukit is nice, more well-organized than Padang, personal opinion. I like the city lights. I like the martabak bika. And I likkeee the shopping. XD
#Sunday afternoon, di depan deretan toko kue
Him : " Rata-rata pada bawa anak semua ke sini.." 
Me : " Kamu juga bawa anak kok ke sini.." #nunduk
Him : "Oh iya lupa! Saya bawa anak juga. Senangnya minta ampun di dalam liat semua kuenya."

I think I can say that I finally can get 'used to' Padang, or to be precise, I finally can take the fact that i'm here now, and this is what I'm doing. #

Me : "Aku keliatan segitu depresinya ya kemaren?"
Him : "Iya. Kemana-mana sendiri. Aku liatnya ini anak depresi amat!"
Me : "hahah..Itu sampai kapan?"
Him : "Kayaknya pertengahan bok 1.1 udah mulai ga sendiri-sendiri lagi. Udah nemu Nadrah, yang mirip kelakuannya."

And it comes clearer to me that people DO change.
Things that we were once so sure about, can change just in a glimpse of an eye.
And how time changes our feelings, points of view, and may be our values.

I'll be in Medan by 21st Dec night. Then I gotta go back here, to Padang, on 28th Des.
I miss home, Mamak,Bapak, my seksay Cia, Kak abeth, Uci, Tere, Mumus,the food in Medan, the list still goes on..

"..all things work for good, even for them that are called according to his purpose."

Thank you God, for everything.


Sitoplasma Bukit Tinggi



Meet Queen Sera- queen of selfie.

I like my half-captured face..hahah

Tutorial group 9

This goes back to september

Heaven on earth :D

" She said I don't want a model. 
I dont want a movie star.
I don't want you to win a lotto.
I  want you to win my heart " 

- Miguel, Simplethings

Monday, August 11, 2014

Lost Stars

  And God,tell us the meaning
  Youth is wasted on the young its hunting season
  And this lamb is on the hunt searching for meaning
   But all we are lost stars trying to light..light up the dark
- Adam Lavine, Lost Stars

Hi bloggies!
How you all doing? :)
Hope all of you are well. 

So, I just moved to Padang,Sumatera Barat, to study Medicine.
It's still part of Indonesia though, in case you don't know where Padang is. :p

I retook the SBMPTN and, with all praises and thanks to God, made it to my first option, Medical School of Andalas University.
I've been here since August 4, so it's been a week now. Mom accompanied me until last Trustday.

One of the reasons why I never posted anything for the last couple months was this, me retaking the SBMPTN. Truth is, since the second semester in Dentistry, I've registered to a Bimbingan Belajar, but  because of the schedules with my classses in Dentistry, I didn't come often. Or precisely, I came like once or may be twice in a week, and at some times in a month.

People at Bimbel always gasped at the fact at I would retake the exam.
Most thought I was doing an ungrateful and silly deed for not just staying in Dentistry.
There were much more comments than supports.
So, I thought it would be best for me not telling any one about the plan.
Just keep it to myself, my family, and close friends.


Now, here I am typing in my rent-room in Jati,Padan.
The day Mom left me to go back to Medan, it was my Ospek day.
So, when I arrived , my room was empty and dark.
It's sad how you thought you'd be just fine by yourself, and suddenly it just wasn't ok.

And, if my family calls me, it always fells like crying.
Crying to the fact that my family is only a four-membered-family, and now I'm away and alone.
Crying to the fact that I miss my Seksay Cia, my most-of-the-time-I-cant-make-sense-of  Mom, and my not-spending-much-time-talking-with Dad. 

And there are these three girls I also miss.
My friends, my sisters, Uci,There,Mumus.
I remembered the time we said what made us so close was that "We all seek for attention. And we all care for one another."
So, no one was put aside.

And, there's Dea, my bestfriend, who is now in Bali, for studying Food Engeenering.
Such a long step she took, and a brave one also.

And, my sister, Kak Abeth, to whom I'm still sorry for didn't make it to meet up on my last day in Medan.
I also miss you sister. 
Sorry for that time.

Padang is not a big city nor metropolitan. And it's much smaller compared to Medan.
But, I'm here not for the city. I'm here to study, to go back to Medan with "MD" titled at the and of my name.

What I know for sure now is that no matter if  the ones you expect to support your plan say NO. Or even if a total stranger tells you NO. But if you know for sure what and why you want it, just do it.
At least if we make mistake,it's our own. 
It's better to fail, than to give up before the battle even starts.
It's better to hope and believe all the things in God than letting people's thoughts to corrupt your guts.

And this what my physiology doctor said when we were studying about Nervous System back in Dentistry : 

" If you are to make a choice between a FIGHT-OR-FLIGHT condition, and if it's still possible, ALWAYS choose to FIGHT. Don't run away but FIGHT!"

This is Sera. She's from Papua and studying Medicine too. We share the same house now but different room. :)

Heheh..every one has SOME WISH TO-WORK-FOR LIST right? :p