Thursday, October 8, 2015

I'm ch-ch-ch-ch cherry bomb!

Dear diary,
I feel sorry for myself.
For letting me feel so afraid and not knowing what I should do.
Truth be told, being in Medical Faculty is not always an up-in-the-air thing, so not that way.
But, if I had to turn over, I wouldn't know which way to go.
So, let me be a student who just constantly tries to figure out what she wants and doubtlessly loves to write.

Note : I'm happy that I finally managed to refresh the blog. :)
Good night all.
Happy living. :*

Wednesday, September 30, 2015


Dear bloggies,
I'm soo happy, more precisely relieved that I HAVE FINISHED MY SPECIFIC CIMSA NATIONAL HRD TEAM JOBDESK!!!
I started doing it on Sunday night and stayed up until 3 a.m. Luckily I was having sleepover at Nadrah' I didn't fall asleep on the fisrt hour! XD

And thanks to Jo for helping me make sure that no one of the delegation gets double listed...and Kak Wiry, the national HRD Director of CIMSA.. Yay!! :D

Now, that I think about my not-going-October-Meeting-of-CIMSA in Semarang, it's a bit of sorrow.
But, I've made my mind, and I'm going home ( Medan ) this week. If I were going to Semarang, no way I could go home too. :p

Of course, I prefer going home (NOW, with some circumtances)....
Since by going home :

I know for those who live with their parents will find this a joke. But man, even if you are not facing money deficiency, HOME-MADE FREE FOOD HAS NO DEFEAT!! 

And I get to wear my sassy skirts!! hahahah ;) 

Yes there are ramen shops and burgers available in Padang..but whatever..every thing tastes wayyy better at  home town. XD

ME :     #sending Harvest link to my closest friends and Mamak via LINE
              " Mak..liat..keren kali bakery nya..Pengen punya kek gitu nanti..."
Mamak : " Iya nak.Keren. Kalau punya yang kayak gitu, mamak bagian yang rasainnya                   aja lah.."

I've always been IN LOVE with sweet food, especially cake, desserts, bread, chocolate,
So big my love for sweetness that it has infected Dea 

Dea : " Kau tau Dys,aku udah ketularan kebiasaan makan manismu. Kawan-kawanku                ngerasa aneh aku makan manis sama yang manis juga. Orang itu belum ketemu            kau aja."

At the momet, I'm in the middle of my Reproductive Block exam...and I just had exam this morning.
The next exam is on Friday and I'm flying to Medan in the afternoon.
Hopefully everything goes smoothly. know what I was trying to have polite introduction with someone..then I guess I should have just cut straight to the point..with asking whether he would teach me how to do Corel Draw and Photo Shop. 

Currently on repeating-mode 

Monday, September 7, 2015

Jo's Personal Monster

Me : " Itu cacing ga?" #nyentuh so-assumed cacing pake botol aqua                         "oh..enggak.."  
Jo : " Kenapa emangnya kalau itu cacing?"
Me : "Ya aku takutlah... Sama kayak ulat bulu... bulat,gendut,                                  berbulu..ihhh.. "
Jo : "Tapi mereka cantik." 
Me : " Cantik dari mana coba? Bikin gatal yang ada.."
         Jo : " Warna mereka cantik, cuman emang ada racunnya. Beautiful monster."                           #giving me some kind of weird look       
              " Every woman is a beautiful monster."

At that time I was sure he was going to say "you are a beautiful monster." but I think he was afraid of accidentally making his emotionally-unstable monster mad. XD


Me : " Aku kesel juga sama keinginanku sendiri Mak. Mau dia selalu buat tindakan 'heroic' ke aku mak. Padahal kalau aku udah tenang dan ingat gimana dia naik bus dari Padang ke Medan cuman buat liburan sama aku, atau waktu aku masuk rumah sakit kemarin, dia lari dari kampus...."
Si Mamak : " .. Gimana dia ga masalah sama jualanmu, bantuin kau beli                                    susu,air..."
Me : " Akh..!iyaaaa..gimanalah ini mak?"
Si Mamak : " Ya minta maaf lah. Biasanya itu hubungan. Pas pacaran perempuan banyak mintanya, laki-lakinya bersabar. Nanti udah kawin, mana bisa lagi banyak mintanya. Dibuanglah perempuan kek gitu kalau udah kawin.."


Honestly, I don't really want people know how my relation goes.
I was afraid of what people might think, that I was bragging and being big-mouthed about it.
But, consider this my last 19-year-old wish before turning 20.

Thank you for being so patient on me Jo.
For being the first one I had ever opened up to.
And also for letting me see from your points of view, your past, your family.
You give me so much than I could ask for.
My constantly demanding-and-unstable emotion is hard to kill but not imposssible to.
So if you ever wonders again, YOU GIVES ME ABUNDANTLY.
And I'm always grateful for that.

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Junkie Elliot

Hi folks. :)

It's so funny how I can stay up for making my goal-paper and making a blog post, yet always find myself sleepy studying for the LOs. XD 

Well, it's been 4 days of FK Unand 12th Lustrum.
It's a one-week birthday celebration of FK Unand and all the academic stuff is CALLED OFF.
But, only today that I find myself enjoying the day-off, being lazy, cleaning my room, I always love my room clean, and watching series, which at the time I'm so consumed with MR. ROBOT and still Orange Is The New Black.
But I gotta say, MR. ROBOT is sooooo great that even a girl who doesn't understand IT like me find it amusing and thrilling at the same time. WOOHOOOO. #recommended100%

#In one LIGAMENT meeting 
Kak Melati : "Do you find yourself ambitious Gladys?"
Me : "....." #silent
Kak Melati : "Well, if you have to think about it, it means you're an ambitious person."
Me : " I was just thinking about the difference between ambition and goal. I don't think I'm an ambitious person. But I HAVE GOALS. And I usually set my goals, so I know what to do. It's like going out. How do you know which way to take if you don't know where your destination is. So, if having goals make me an abtious person, so be it."

I went to the beach this afternoon.
It was cloudy, but I really wanted to go.

And this lately I've been practising driving, and it has not been easy.
I feel soo nervous whenever there's car coming from the opposite direction, and I freak out when Jo tells me to turn the car around..
He couldn't help my stubborness so he shut his mouth with a pillow...and it scares me everytime he does that....Makes me feel like he would  eat me if the pillow weren't there.  XD

CIMSA TNT Pre October Meeting 2015

My goal-paper for this odd semester ;)

The beach this afternoon                                        -->

A glimpse of my room and my stick-everything-I-like hobby

 <-- PC TEAM               CIMSA UNAND 2015-2016
 Every day is worth writing about -->
A full time in SCOPH's SCOOBY DOO

 <-- I'm making this my personal bookmark
One of the many things we have in LUSTRUM is FK IDOL. And NO, we didn't join the competition. We're just taking pictures XD

 One of my favourite month -->

This is my jualan-bag. So every time you see me with this in campus, it means I'm trying to support my own holiday. :p

Saturday, August 29, 2015


Hi blog!
I think I've sain a gazilllion times how I'm sorry for not having written anything, but it's just that having your own personal journal makes you forget a "public" one. XD

Some recaps about life..
I've been back here, in Padang, for a month now.
And at the very moment, I am studying complication in pregnancy, specifically and medically speaking Pre-eclampcia and Eclampcia.

And,the fact that September is coming always thrills me..hahahah..
I know...I childish of me.
But the truth is I love my birthday.
Not about the presents, although who wouldn't be happy to receive a new free thing. hahaha.
But, it's a day of celebrating my existing, and a day to remind me that I've had another one-year journey. ;)

I would love to share about fairytale now.
But, I never love her/ them.
It's not her blonde hair, or skinny body that makes me jealous, it just I don't get her that way. #apaSIHdys -_-"

My fairytale kinda movie is FRIENDS WITH BENEFIT.
I know I've posted about this movie like when I was still on my third year in high school.
And stupidly cry watching it.

I feel like chanelling the movie in some spots..hahahha..
Or maybe that's just how I see relationship should be..openess,freedom,passion,honesty,history, and irony of life.

You know I join  LIGAMENT, an english club in FK, and we had our meeting last Friday.
We were discussing about anger and ambition.

When I was asked about what in the modern life that makes me angry, I answered
" The fact that people like to mind others' bussiness. Being so nosy about others."
And I also said " I don't want people to know my private life that much. It's like the less you share, the less people know, the more curious they become, the more valuable you become."

Weird thing is I always love writing.
To express my feeling. It was never something to be nervous about for me to write.
And writing this sometimes makes me wonder if some people read and start to wonder what happened to this girl.hahahah..
But I managed to not giving a care anymore.
writing makes me happy, and so I do it.

You know those are just my jungling mind.


Friday, July 31, 2015

Black Magic

Hi bloggie!
it's the end of July and also the end of my 3-week-holiday in Medan.
I'mma head back to Padang on Sunday afternoon.

It's funny when holiday is almost over, I just feel like laying on my bad, watching Orange Is The New Black, or just switching through the TV channels. XD

But, for tomorroow, I think I have list o do :

1. Clean the house (my main job whenever I'm home) :D
2. Eat lontong pagi and serabi (must-have breakfast meal whenever I'm home) :p
3. Start reading my jobdesk as HRD Team CIMSA
4. Out with Mamak and Cia, I'm craving or Pizza Boy and  burger..guess those will be my lunch 
5. Buy my ticket 
6. Packing my stuff 

Thank you for my fantastic holiday God.
It has been fulfilling my heart.
May I head back to Padang with a fighting spirit and a surrending heart. 

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Ed Messran

So, it's been 4 day since all the exam thingy.
And It's also been 4 days of watching Vampire Diaries, waiting for Saat Berbuka to buy food, doing nothing in my room.

It's also been 4 days of feeling literally alone and lonely.
My kost has 10 rooms outside the landlord's house, 5 in the back row, 5 in front.And my room is in the middle of the back row.
The other rooms are empty but mine.
So, when I watched around midnight, it gave me a creepy sensation. XD

Last night was a bit out of my treshold point.
I couldn't take the fact that I couldn't go out on my motor.
I'd have to take the public trasportation, taxi, or walk.

The fact that I can't go by my own and the way I want, starts to build the feeling of being limited,caged up.

I don't know why, but  just couldn't open up as I ussually do with my group friends he than in Medan.
May be it's just me can't take this culture shock.

First time In Methodist 2, it was culture shock too.
Didn't think I'mma have to face this again, with the fact that this time all of my life changed.
There's no more Mamak,Bapak, Cia.
No more mobility.
No more freedom on being, talking what I usually do.
No more sister-time with Kak Abeth.
No more eat-window-shopping-fooling-around with Dea.
No more three crazy,loving,uniqely different girls I have in Dentistry.
No more partameangan.
No more sermon,
No more my safe zone.

I don't know why it repeatedly come to me.
The thought of comparing Padang to Medan.
The feeling of being alone.
The constantly-complaining Gladys.

The fact that Mamak has always tried her best in motivating me may be one of the reason why I just can't back off.
I've gone far. 
She has spent a lot me studying here.
and I know this makes her happier than ever.

" Aku ga tau. Aku ga tau kalau bakalan seberat ini waktu dijalaninnya.Banyak banget yang aku tinggalin di Medan.Aku terus berpikir apa FK ini layak buat itu semua.Buat semua yang aku tinggalin, semua yang aku relain. "

" Ga ada yang bilang bakal gampang.
Kamu ingat singa betina itu keluar dan berburu untuk kelompoknya.
Mangsanya dua kali lebih besar dari dia, lebih cepat.
Tapi dia harus kejar buat makan kelompoknya.
Kalau memang ini bukan yang kamu mau, tapi ga mungkin kamu tinggalin, jalanin aja dulu.
Setelah itu kamu lakuin apa yang kamu mau.
Aku yakin kok kalau kamu mampu nyelesainnya."

That's what Jo told me last night.
He called because I was don't-wanna-go-out-just-want-to-be-at-kost that night.

I like English a lot.
I like stories, a lot.
I can read an article talking about Lithium in "curing" Bipolar in New York Times than actually just read my lecturer presentation.
I like Diana Rikasari's blog.
It's colorful.
I like magezine. It's also colorful and fresh and entertainment-filled.

I like riding my motor to 80 km/hour.
I like the feeling of freedom, of the wind blowing my hair, of my short skirts, my T-shirts, my messy hair.
I like to run.
I've always liked it.

I like CIMSA, precisely I like being part of actions.
I like selling DANUS. It makes me feel I'm needed or actually can bring something that make someone happy.

I like having  good boy friends.
I was never sure of it, but I like it.
Boys are less drama, 

I like doctors- my lecturers- who don't push me (us) to get A, but opening our horizon and making me (us) wonder.

I like writing.
My mind talks all the time.

I like chocolate, all variant of it.
I like good food.
I like watching movies, series.

The truth is, I feel worried if people, my relevat know all of this.
That they'll hink my Mom pushed me into this road.
I don't like people blaming my Mom.

But you know what.
I've got to the point where I stop worrying others' perspectives on my family.
I know my Mamak, I know my Bapak, and I know my Cia.
Everybody's opinions won't change the fact that these are the only people I share blood with.
I spent my first years of life with.